Anxiety and Stress

As the days count down

3

2

1

School is fast approaching, my anxiety and stress level

keep going up and up and up.

I am so behind on electronic schooling. I have

2 quarters of Algebra

1 quarter of English 12

2 quarters of History of the World

1 quarter of History of America

and possibly more.

But I have 3 days to finish this all.

I hate it so very much.

Baby Jax

One of my friends had a beautiful baby boy tonight.

Welcome to the world

Jaxton Lynn Walker!!!

He was born with head bleeding and was life flighted out

to University of Utah hospital today.

She is asking everyone to pray for Jax.

Random Thoughts

So I'm going to take a little break from my letters. Now I am going to do my just think on my blog. I am now going to turn it into my journal, not only because I suck at keeping a routine but also that I lost all my old journals.

I wish I had more energy, like my mom for example. She's is super mom! She does everything she can do for us. She is always there! I wish I could be a super mom like her :).

I go back to school soon, I am so scared to go back! I only really have about 2 friends that go to Union. It scares me to death to think that I might sit alone at lunch and be stared at. I hate being the center of attention. Especially when it's bad attention. I have a pretty fun schedule I love it so far but I am not even in school yet. I have U.S. government, everyone that has taken it says its super fun so I figured I would take it. Stained glass, I love stained glass with a passion, I love that I can create something so gorgeous. Medical Anatomy & Physiology, hey its a science credit and you get to build a human out of clay, muscles, eyes, skin everything. Then Mythology and Folklore, its an English credit I love mythology, so I hope it doesn't ruin that love.

I hate that I have to leave Trace to go to school. But I am doing it for him. He is the reason I try so hard to do everything I do. I love him so very much.

day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from

Dear Lolli :),

You were once my

best friend!! Since like age

9 when we did 4-H together

(i never told you but i gossiped

about how you would loose

points for your pink belt buckle)

lol. We were pretty crazy lol.

I loved being able to talk to you

and trust you. But over the

years we just drifted apart

(probably over the many a

fights we had). I just want

you to know that you will

always and forever be one

of my friends. I can't believe

how much things have changed

over the years. But I'm glad that I had you as a friend through them.

You are an amazing person and friend.

Love always

Lynnz

day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you

Over the past couple of months I have lost many people and said things that have hurt people (because i was hormonal and people irritated me) But I don't really need anyone or wish anyone to forgive me.

day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

So I got a little off course with the letters so I am going to pick up from where I left off!

Dear person that has caused me a lot of pain,

You gave me so many fake promises, you got my hopes up. You broke my heart numerous times when I was younger. I loved you so much and forgave you for every little thing that you had done to me. I wish I could say that now, but you ran out chances along time ago. You are still apart of my life I wish you would try and be more involved and be there for us. But I guess if it truely was meant to be then it would but I guess not.

Love always

Lynnz